Some ramblings
Jan. 18th, 2013 01:30 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
kathy_fraggleWell, there's a lot on my mind, but I still don't really like the thought of having to put all my thoughts together in a nice, concise and elequent way to write them, so I thought I'd just write whatever came to mind until I felt I'd rambled on long enough or got distracted by something else, lol. First of all I'm using the mobile version of LJ for the first time, and so far it's proving to be wonderful! Hopefully it'll inspire me to come here more often, as there is stuff that I want and need to say that's too long, or strange, or personal for facebook. Plus, I remember long ago I used to get my kicks by reading random peoples' livejournals, so maybe someone, somewhere will get some odd, procrastinating pleasure out of reading mine, lol. If anyone does by the way, please feel free to leave me a message. I love meeting new people, and it'd be a nice break from the spam I've been seeing lately! Anyone else having that problem?
Anyway, I'm a bit sick. It's not really bad though, and after drinking some peach snapple I'm feeling a bit better, so I don't think it'll last through the weekend. Four day weekend for me! I love how my three-day weekends are four, and my regular two day weekends are three in college. One of it's few perks, I guess. Oh yes, and after a while being away from home is nice too. I'm making a knew start this semester! How many times have I said that before? This time though, I'm serious about getting more help, and paying more attention to assignments and things like that. I've already put a lot of that in place. Now I just need to worry about convincing the commission next week... Actually I'm not so much worried about their reaction as I am about my mom. Even if it turns out to be good news, she'll still probably act as if I personally brought about the epocolipse. She offered to bring me home tomorrow, even though she told me last week she didn't want me home. I told her she didn't have to. Eh, I've got work to do anyway, and she's right in that it's easier for me to focus here, if only just. Of course, she didn't say it in so many words... Anyway, she's gonna come tomorrow and bring me some new clothes, and I'm gonna ask her to bring me a cupcake as well if there are any left. My aunt made them the other night from scratch, and I couldn't wait to try one! When I realized I left without doing so, I was dispreportionately upset for just a cupcake. Internally, I was balling like a five-year-old, "I didn't have a cupcake and my mom doesn't want me to come home ever again, (which to be fair she didn't say either), and now I'll never get to try one!" Once in a while , not often but sometimes, I'll feel like that. I'll have this sadness that's not caused by day to day stress, anger or frustration or anything like that, but feels more like a small child who lost their favorite toy. I'm making it sound petty when infact it's not. It's a sort of more raw, keening feeling. Does that make sense? Oh, my feelings are just all over the place lately! Even in the time I've been writing this, I've gone through several, lol.
Anyway, I think I'll end for now. More later, including a rundown of my trip to Universal! Florida, I meant Florida!
Anyway, I'm a bit sick. It's not really bad though, and after drinking some peach snapple I'm feeling a bit better, so I don't think it'll last through the weekend. Four day weekend for me! I love how my three-day weekends are four, and my regular two day weekends are three in college. One of it's few perks, I guess. Oh yes, and after a while being away from home is nice too. I'm making a knew start this semester! How many times have I said that before? This time though, I'm serious about getting more help, and paying more attention to assignments and things like that. I've already put a lot of that in place. Now I just need to worry about convincing the commission next week... Actually I'm not so much worried about their reaction as I am about my mom. Even if it turns out to be good news, she'll still probably act as if I personally brought about the epocolipse. She offered to bring me home tomorrow, even though she told me last week she didn't want me home. I told her she didn't have to. Eh, I've got work to do anyway, and she's right in that it's easier for me to focus here, if only just. Of course, she didn't say it in so many words... Anyway, she's gonna come tomorrow and bring me some new clothes, and I'm gonna ask her to bring me a cupcake as well if there are any left. My aunt made them the other night from scratch, and I couldn't wait to try one! When I realized I left without doing so, I was dispreportionately upset for just a cupcake. Internally, I was balling like a five-year-old, "I didn't have a cupcake and my mom doesn't want me to come home ever again, (which to be fair she didn't say either), and now I'll never get to try one!" Once in a while , not often but sometimes, I'll feel like that. I'll have this sadness that's not caused by day to day stress, anger or frustration or anything like that, but feels more like a small child who lost their favorite toy. I'm making it sound petty when infact it's not. It's a sort of more raw, keening feeling. Does that make sense? Oh, my feelings are just all over the place lately! Even in the time I've been writing this, I've gone through several, lol.
Anyway, I think I'll end for now. More later, including a rundown of my trip to Universal! Florida, I meant Florida!
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